Author Archives: kegbot1

The Origins of a Crippling Fear

I was talking to my supervisor this morning. She went on a family camping trip over the weekend and now is sore. Her family had struck out from their campsite, exploring the nature preserve and saw some interesting land formations, … Continue reading

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A Catch I’ll Never Have

The local classical station plays movie music late Saturday mornings. I was listening to it just now and the theme from ‘Field of Dreams’ came on. And I, as I reflexively do when it plays, started to tear up. The … Continue reading

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For a Moment to be Ourselves

Last night, the madness group (or ‘mental health’ group if you prefer) staged an Open Mic Night where several people including four very talented teenagers, shared their personal stories. This was part of an overall effort to allow these voices … Continue reading

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You Tube Post: BPD Symptom 5; The Bad One (suicide)

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Brain Busted

I was shaving my head the other night (you know, to get that cool bald look), when a thought struck me. Beneath this enormous dome of a head was a brain that plays tricks on me. My brain sometimes changes … Continue reading

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Podcast 10

A Difficult MInd – NYC Redux, Suicide, Hurt Feet and Border Rant   PODCAST HERE: Download MP3 (23.5 MB) 00:00 -25:31 1x In which Keith has a bad day where he overmedicates but feels the need to continue a podcast … Continue reading

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Podcast 7: Inside our Minds

https://embed.simplecast.com/49ebae31?color=f5f5f5 Alyssa Cypher and I discuss her Pittsburgh based group ‘Inside our Minds:’ how and why it was formed and what it has accomplished. We also discuss the mental health model and the Mad Pride’ movement as well as the … Continue reading

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