Category Archives: ativan

Mick Jagger Bogarted My Meds

I know it’s been a while since I’ve written anything. I may have mentioned it before but there are stretches where I’m literally incapable of writing anything. It’s not that the muse isn’t present, it’s just that the will is … Continue reading

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OK, So I Lied

I’ve been nicely strong-armed back to a blogging group on Facebook in which we work to increase each other’s blog awareness. I’ve never been a part of such an effort but the people who run it, run it like schoolteachers. … Continue reading

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High Anxiety

The reactions to my Monday therapy experience have not gone away. This morning I was as nervous as I’ve been in many a month. I don’t get it. Maybe a therapist could tell me. For two weeks, I unpacked some … Continue reading

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Nightmares of my Father and other things

I must write this out because I fear if I don’t this day could be worse than I’d imagined. I already clawed my way out of bed 10 minutes late, had a cup of coffee and a small bowl of … Continue reading

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Psychiatry R Us

I went to see my drug pusher today. She has a nice office, of course, in a nice building and she has a lot of pretty professional plaques on the wall and a special chair given to her by the … Continue reading

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I Have A Little List

I have a piece of paper hanging taped to the support beam on my side desk.  Not MY petition but A petition I’m debating the good it does. It’s a debate that will go on for a while.’ The paper … Continue reading

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Well meaning advice and sick coping strategies

You have your coping mechanisms, I have mine. Post Script: HOW COULD I MISS THIS? It’s one of my favorite movies. Anyway, the subtitle for this piece should be: How I learned to stop worrying and love the bomb. The … Continue reading

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