Category Archives: birthday

On Turning 55

I turned 55 today.   I stood in a very cold garage smoking a high end cigar and drinking a maple bourbon and coke and listening to Sinatra’s ‘September of my Years’ and wondering what all my dead relatives would … Continue reading

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Brain Weasels Attack!

Editor’s Note: I really can be quite humorous at times but lately, as you might have noticed, things have not been going well at all. I write the way I feel and I write, not on a schedule, but when … Continue reading

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From my mother on the occasion of my birthday

Hello Mom, This is about the time of the morning where I would get the call from you – the birthday call. Every year on my birthday I would get my special birthday wish from you. The main subject was … Continue reading

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