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Hotel Chronicles: The Art of Uncertain Despair

This is a painting, perhaps print that hangs in my hotel suite that can be seen from every angle of the main room. I have found in wandering the halls of this place, that every single room, to the best … Continue reading

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Making all his Nowhere Plans

“What should young people do with their lives today? Many things, obviously. But the most daring thing is to create stable communities in which the terrible disease of loneliness can be cured.” ― Kurt Vonnegut On online writer friend recently wrote … Continue reading

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Disclaimer: these feelings of gratitude could change at any time, especially tomorrow. I’ve been struggling to write lately. Tomorrow is the soon-to-be-famous Address to the Director and I was thinking about writing on that but since I’ve been informed that … Continue reading

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I’ll admit it. I slept with a Cleveland Browns football.  It was one of those mechanically signed cheap footballs where the older it got, the more the pebble cover flaked off. Dad got it for me in 1969 so it … Continue reading

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