Category Archives: getting old

Paralyzed

So another day frozen to my desk not sure of what to do. My boss is back – she was sick yesterday and simply didn’t tell anyone. One of my co-workers emailed her in the morning and that’s the only … Continue reading

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Escape is impossible

My psychiatrist has recommended upping my daily dose of lamotrigine 50 mg. Why not? At my age I have been a 40-year experiment in the various effects of psychotropic medicine. What’s one little uppage of the dosage? She made this … Continue reading

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It kills

I would like a place I could call my own Have a conversation on the telephone Wake up every day that would be a start I would not complain about my wounded heart Just wait till tomorrow I guess that’s … Continue reading

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Old Crazy Writers Never Die . . .

I may submit further articles to The Mighty if I find what I call ‘universal subjects’ on Borderline Personality Disorder that haven’t already been covered to death by other writers. The last submission of mine wasn’t exactly greeted with great … Continue reading

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“She absolutely can’t sing”

re: My cousin (female) who I haven’t spoken to or seen in about 25 years about Stevie Nicks I’m sitting here nursing a sore back for the start of the third week, listening to Nicks’ first solo album. ‘After the … Continue reading

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Send my regrets

This one is purely personal. So this morning, home because of the weather, I watched last night’s This is Us. And I found out my second cousin who I went to high school with had died. I hadn’t seen him … Continue reading

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My Depression Top Ten Hits

re-run of previous column for the latecomers. . .  It has become trendy among the various blogs and websites covering mental illness, to feature lists of songs that people play when depressed or play when they need to rally from … Continue reading

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