Category Archives: imprinting

Not Fade Away

Prelude: my ‘discipline’ handed down to me today was a written reprimand which is 1-2 steps away from a firing. After all the star-chamber proceedings all they had was what I said in jest originally to another co-worker. I’m going … Continue reading

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The relationship between myself and shrink 29 is over.  After 35+ years of psychotherapy or whatever you want to call it, she convinced me that whatever happens now or in the future, it’s all my fault. I have been weighed … Continue reading

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I Didn’t Want to Die – A Confession After 46 Years

A bucket of oil, much like this one – it was blue too. I was a kid other kids naturally (it seemed) picked on. Not trying to make a value judgment or anything, it just was. Why? I think like … Continue reading

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