Category Archives: self-harm

It’s been real . . .

I’m killing myself. I know this. Slowly but deliberately killing myself. I recently turned 56 and for the first time in my life I feel truly old. And I talked to my shrink and told her that it took 40 … Continue reading

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You Tube Post: BPD Symptom 5; The Bad One (suicide)

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Paralyzed

So another day frozen to my desk not sure of what to do. My boss is back – she was sick yesterday and simply didn’t tell anyone. One of my co-workers emailed her in the morning and that’s the only … Continue reading

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We’re all on this lifeboat

What is a diagnosis of ‘mental illness?’ The quick and essentially correct answer, is the meeting of criteria for an illness is the DSM V. In addition, mental health professionals can make ‘educated guesses’ based on firsthand experience with a … Continue reading

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My Depression Top Ten Hits

re-run of previous column for the latecomers. . .  It has become trendy among the various blogs and websites covering mental illness, to feature lists of songs that people play when depressed or play when they need to rally from … Continue reading

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A dog’s tale

Not sure how this is going to go over — ed.  Let’s say you have a dog. It’s a rescue dog. This pooch had been abused as a puppy by its previous owner and then grew up to be passed … Continue reading

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My Head is a Mood Ring

Those of us with various mental illnesses have what are called ‘invisible conditions.’ That’s not always true. Some people have scars from cutting, for instance. Others have various conditions like Skin Picking Disorder or Excoriation for instance. Sometimes, these conditions … Continue reading

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