Category Archives: shame

Drowning slowly

Brain fog. Depression. Tiredness. All part of my world for the last 48 hours. I take the same pills every day. I go through the same routines every day. I have been working out and for a while, the endorphins … Continue reading

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Vanilla Shit, mostly

Once again, today is almost a polar opposite of yesterday. I’m not necessarily depressed, just subdued and tired. I can’t explain it to anyone adequately. I don’t really understand how it happens myself; all I know is that if I … Continue reading

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Ruinations on Bipolar and Life

It’s taken me the better part of my life to realize that I have always carried this disease of the brain and I shall take it to my grave. It has been the catalyst of a series of up and … Continue reading

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Me and a tree

In the backyard there was a pine tree.    Where I used to sit on the roof. The tree is marked with an arrow. The pool was not there when I climbed it. On the trunk, some branches had been … Continue reading

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World Mental Health Day in the USA

Back in March, something happened in Seattle, Washington. A man climbed a tree and refused to get down. Here he is: The man has a name: Cody Miller. After refusing to get down from the tree, Cody became kind of … Continue reading

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#ImNotAshamed

It’s a big day for this hashtag on Twitter. You can find the movement at https://twitter.com/teamnotashamed It’s designed to help young people speak out about mental illness and hopefully break down the stigma which leads to self-harm and suicide. If … Continue reading

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The Shame Game or how to lose a crappy psychologist in six sessions or less

This story highlights the fact that there are a great number of shitty mental health professionals out there:9 women share horror stories about being shamed for their mental health — by doctors I think it is my fate to have … Continue reading

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