Tag Archives: Borderline Personality Disorder

A philosophy worth exploring

So, I have an opportunity to learn something that I feel will help me master the issues caused by Borderline Personality Disorder. The discovery has arisen from discussions about toxic masculinity and the constant reference to men who are victims … Continue reading

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The Sins of the Father

I had, what for me, was a disturbing revelation a few days ago. I recently strained my rotator cuff in my right shoulder. I did it in my sleep, which is another story entirely. I was prescribed physical therapy and … Continue reading

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A Different Drummer

Trigger warnings: news, politics. There’s a cute game people play around the holidays. Basically, the game is trying to avoid hearing any version of ‘Little Drummer Boy’ whether it be on the radio, TV, Internet or even office carolers. If … Continue reading

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It’s been real . . .

I’m killing myself. I know this. Slowly but deliberately killing myself. I recently turned 56 and for the first time in my life I feel truly old. And I talked to my shrink and told her that it took 40 … Continue reading

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The Unbearable Heaviness of Meeting

I’ve been busy at work lately. I get home and I collapse. The work is actually ‘good’ work – going out, interviewing, taking photos, getting my stuff on Facebook. Good times, right? Not quite. Today we had a group of … Continue reading

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So I Changed the Name – why?

Because. Because the whole idea of avoiding showers, while novel, seems to imply that we all would smell. The more I’ve thought about it, the more I’ve disliked the name and what it may imply. This might sound like I … Continue reading

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EMDR: The Last Frontier

Now what? Monday at 5 p.m. I will meet psychologist number 33. Note: I had to kick the total up after committing myself to recalling every therapist I have seen in Pittsburgh. The final number, eight, surprised me. Eight in … Continue reading

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